It was years passing by in daily stripping routine in between sickening of my neurotical psyche and quick heal-aid ambulance and rhytmical possible hospitalisations into Estonian Regular Psychiatric Complex, started from 2013 - the year I lost my contact with balance and stratospheres of universe. That time I was quickly inspired by obsessive landmarks : ground, broke items, natural significance brought great obscural emotional tension in me, whence I saw emotional backside flips and tricks of the mind behind every single peace, that gathered my road attention. So, I quickly adopted idea of picking up item, creating a plot to the story of it, filming it.
First time, I have launched film developement to the Friendlist user Hanna to see a preview of it. It has been years since I launch worldwide my youth's prestigious trips, relevant to me (at that time).
I WAS once stopped by Latvian fierce traffic police organ to explain my interest of hitch-hiking, tracking the outstanding's of Northern Europe including filming developing material around Estonia, Latvia, Lithuania and boarder Poland.
The recent researches brought me to readings of severinity among human with maniac, chronical depression, which now frightens me to be alike I had been back in the 10'ies days.
Those, who did not match my boarding trip result, can simply say au revoir since they haven't met me nor have had a talk in Paris... Ending trips with high resolution picturesque stills from cameras and movie-casette filming motion moving is what I carry with gap in my collaborative enthusiastic mind due to brain damage, major collide of pause and minor resemblence to growth, evolution and valueing of honoured time. My mindset equals to merely very ill person, taking drugs every first day of the month and each daily on a mondatory; visiting a nurse and psychiatrist at the hospital is no longer mandatory, but there's a big risk of going back healthilly to the same tricky destroyful desease if i stop taking my medicine.
Im a 100% invalid now, with chronical mentally ill depression, schyzophrenia and bi-polar disorder in which has been treatened and settled up medically to normal.
Update:
I have done writing a Baltic serial plot in 2012 about Latvian small village called Code, but work on a screening text is still on-going. Happy birthday, Geoff!! Wishing you a good smart choises on your birthday ♡x♡x♡
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